RANSVESTIA

bination of my job, my wife's turning from acceptance to complete an- tagonism, and other interests which I threw myself into, to compensate for this loss.

Many of you would say it couldn't or shouldn't be done. Perhaps not, but other than reading some of the back issues of TVia and occasion- ally sleeping in a nightgown I have refrained. Why? Well, I love my wife very much, it was about to break us up and had this occurred I would probably have lost my job (a good one) as well as the possible loss of the love and affection of my three children. Since I have always led a highly disciplined life in childhood, school, military service and have a high degree of self-discipline in my work, I decided to try to refrain. I didn't say cured or quit. I merely decided to try to refrain from dressing. No, I didn't burn up my wardrobe. I kept it locked in a special closet that I built in our house (I think she suspects what is in it but has never asked), along with my library of TVias.

My desires haven't gone away. I have had to be satisfied with many pleasant memories and of course fantasies my own and those pro- vided by TVia. Where does this all lead well enclosed is my subscrip- tion, renewal of which is one indication.

As I write I am dressed and have been enjoying keeping house for a few days while she is away. Needless to say this has been ecstasy and I have been dressed 24 hours day for the past week except for two six- hour periods that my brother managed to do some work.

My greatest dream would be for my acceptance by my GG. At one time she accepted and helped in every way, but all the time I think she thought it would go away and one day she could stand it no longer. She blew up and has since refused to discuss it. Perhaps you will say I am just a weak sister— perhaps I am but I love her, my family and my job. I am going to try again to reach an understanding because I need the tranquility that my transformation brings about. The past three years have caused me great problems at home and at work. Problems that didn't exist when I was able to express my femmeself.

Virginia you may not recall but my history was some dressing in my teens, but then none until I was over 40 and hadn't realized what trans- vestism was or that there were others, etc. After learning of TVia you helped me greatly to accept myself, remove guilt, introduced me to FPE and "friends". (Incidentally I have maintained my FPE membership during my inactivity.)